Good poem but only you can put the words back again. Talk to you soon.

Chad

really nice, keep in a good work

cheers

Priscilla 

I walked in an absolute downpour a few weeks ago, and once your past that first few minutes of feling uncomfortable it's worth it to watch others take cover while you stride ahead with a smile on your face.

A good adventure. Take care as always.

My wife lived only 3 miles away at the finish of things.

I always resisted the urge.

If he doesn't know from the entries and still wants a distance then maybe that's what needs to be done.

Sorry for the truthful comment, I think it'll be more use in the long run.

Look after yourself.

You might want to add me......I'm going to set my diary back to semi private soon.

Chad

Well, now I know what continent you're on. Hope you get warm and dry soon. Talk to you later.

Chad

wanna know wat else is fun?
sliding in puddles,lol,I did that.
how old r u?
Im 15.
DONT CACH PNOMIA!
lol thats how I pronounce it even w/the p.
(:

Good entry, I'm sorry to hear about what your little sister did. Talk to you soon.

Chad

*Britney*
omg I still love her,lol,and CHRIS CROKER!!!!!!!!

I think I spelled his last name wronge.

good luck for your exam, i like Brittany's song.  toxic

Tell you what i'll come out the pile and say I thought Toxic was great.

Would have prefered it without the vocals but you can't have everything.

I hope he does understand.

I hope that things get better.

*hugs*

I am really sorry that you've had such a bad week!

You've not really missed much exciting in my entries!

*hugs*

Ah you shouldn't be upset about your friend except in the obvious way.

My line of work tells me that if someone wants to do something that badly no matter of people or things will stop them.

No doubt crashing your car is a serious attempt but rather than focussing on what you could have done (I'd imagine nothing) think about how you may be able to help and be a good friend from here on....I would imagine he/she would appreciate that.

It's funny isn't it that whole do/don't want to write because you do/don't want M to read it.

I have that with confronting my wife.

I do/don't want to tell her what a selfish, thoughtless, uncaring person she became.

A quandry indeed.

And indeed a good night to you.

Ah to be friends or not be freinds that is the question.

I'm friends with my last girlfreind. I think that she's (kind of) holding out for a rethink on my part, it's not going to happen.

But I've been upfront about it and she wants to be around in a friend capacity.

So it's her call.

Perhaps that's how it should go with M.

But as always.......take care.

Hold strong. I know it looks dark now but things will improve. Life will be sunny again.

Carltonstud

Oh you don't want to go killing yourself.......

But I guess you know that.

Happy times deary.

You could always try to find someone to talk to about all this amidst all your homework. Is there a counselor at school? What about a pastor if you have a church you belong too? I know it is hard to fit things in, but it sounds like you really have a lot to get off your heart and your mind. I hope things get easier for you, and that you feel more at ease soon. Peace

Michelle

Insides ripped out and heart in two.....yep.....I know that feeling.

good luck with it all.

I quite like rhubarb!

Hope you have a good week!

A blessing count.....I might just join in.

Ta.

Sometimes it's good to vent on here.

I hope that things get better.

I think it would be a little hypocritical of me to lambast a downer entry considering the nature of my own lately.

Quite simply I'm glad writing on here brings you some relief.

Take care young lady.

Oh we beat the turn out over here.

Last election it was only a 44% turn out.

I find your fact not necessarily random but very important indeed.

Ooooh look at Miss No Entry for 3 days getting all rough on my entry gaps ass.

Come on I'll up date more often if you do!

I like Pizza Hut better. If I wanted to bake my own pizza I would just buy the ingredients and make it myself. Better that way.

Carltonstud

Woah calm down there chicken.

Or should you?

Invisible in name but not nature.

There's nopthing more satisfying than a compliment.

Perhaps those paychecks should go on black clothing.

My hair is quite a bit shorter now than it ever has been, but I just felt like trying something new.

Good luck with your new job!  I hope you have a great week!

*hugs*   

It's always good to have a support, wherever that may come from.

Up and up, I like it.

[tommib]

Speaking as a man who at some point will be divorced, that hasn't stopped me in the dating field....

I'm not saying his situation is the same as mine (I doubt it is), but just that people can be 'still married' but not with the husband/wife.

Just a thought, hope it hasn't confused things.

Take care as always.

p.s...Your suggestion about coming to America and doing what I want is one very much in the top of my mind for the future....well thought out you.

lol,Tim should've ben there when he was needed he doesnt need 2 listen 2 his parents that iz bs!!!

and that was nice..did u get a bonus?

LOL!  That guy Tim really sounds like he was just making up excuses! 

I hope the classes go well.

I'm surprised because I thought the poem was really good, and I would have thought you would have had more feedback on it.

Good luck at college!  I hope you have a great time!

have fun at college,always sounded like fun I have like 4 more yrs 2 go.

XD

who is "she"?

Sorry to hear your finding it hard to cope, how come your feelin so down?

You're not a slut!  And you're not ugly!

I really hope that things are better soon.

*hugs*

Ever heard the phrase 'people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones'?

Oh I'm well aware of my 'lesser' side.

I move away from people as to not sit there getting sympatheitc looks or one liners.

I've been to the doctors and he's stuck me on pills, started my counselling, it is she who is  pushing the 'past' affecting 'now' ideas.....if you read my diary I am scpetical about this whole possibilty.

So who's the downer here?

Of course the other half of me hopes you're ok.

Take care.

[tommib]

You shouldnt put yourself down like that, you're not ugly.
Be proud of who you are, and dont let yourself be miserable.
Don't let your problems bring you down - be strong.

And that doesnt make you a slut, you know that.
Just because your mom practicly said you were, doesnt mean it's true.

youre not alone, you know that.  You'll get out of this and thigns will be ok!

-mib

It sometimes does a lot of good to have a good on-line rant about things!  Maybe I should do it more when I'm annoyed!

I've never tried Mountain Dew.  

A fellow Mountain Dew junkie I see.

At least you can get your fix. I have to rely on tea.....and lots of it.

You RAWR away young lady, I find it helps.

[tommib]

I'll lose my mind if I had that sugar drink.

-Jovonnah Rabbit

Oh my dear girl. I know where you are.

And it's sh*t isn't it.

And although my recent entries have hardly been the type you would read to a child at bedtime, they do mask that even I see something good coming in the (possibly very distant) future.

To quote myself (badly I imagine), "I know the future isn't bleak but it just looks like it".

I like seeing lot's of entires from you when I come on here, keep it up and take care.

 I'm looking forward to tomorrow then.

Trying the  update stuff, now the internets not playing ball...it's not my fault

Try not to curse me too much, ta.

I don't think nyone will try to steal him in boot. lol

*sigh* big sissy, i know it's hard being a depressed person, and being told what to do when you just want to do things your way is always hard. Trust me, i know better than most. And you can cry on my shoulder anytime you want. If M really loves you, be yourself, all of yourself, and if he can't handle you at your worst, then he sure as hell doesn't deserve you at your best. Everything will be ok in the end. Don't worry.
    For the depression thing, ask him if it's ok for you to be open with that stuff with him. If not, then listen to music or excersise or read or anything. Anything to keep your mind off it. It helps so much. But you need to take it out in a healthy way. I don't want to lose my big sissy. I just want to help.
Good nightt. *HUGSSSSSSSS*

Jerkface?

I'll take that as a sort of twisted endearment.

Sorry about the pusscat.

I was talking about my cat yesterday, indiana who I had to leave with my (at some point to be ex) wife.

I miss the cat more than anyother part of that old life.

I hope she's ok.

As for the random question......it usually means that the person saying it considers themselves to bored, important, stupid or frightened to offer constructive advice.

At least that's what I think.

You're the only person I've met (?) that's scary in a friendly way.

Well done on that.

And no, not going away at all, facing my demons here. Grrrr, indeed.

Now I know I may have been out of the game for a while (back in for good now, no more travelling means entries get done), but you seem to have developed a swearing thing there.

I f***ing like it.

Anyway, I'm very glad things seem to be ticking away well for you, even flunking means you may have been having fun instead of studying.

What are they teaching you out there?

The Art Of Cursing.

Carry on with the good work.

[tommib]

*gives you ice-cream and chocolates*

again like the reviewer below the reviewer below me (confusing i n0e :D)

Mutual as in it went ok and not any fighting. Or mutual as in went ok you're still going to cry later on? 

byeee,

mia <33

*hugs*

Sorry to hear you had such a bad day at work!

I hope everything turns out okay!

*hugs*

Do it then. Break up wif him.

-Jovonnah Bunny Rabbit

I'm really sorry you're going through such a bad time.

*hugs*

I really hope everything works out okay!

*hugs*!

I never like storms!

Hope you have a good week!

Thank you!  It was a really nice evening.

I always liked sharks (although I wouldn't like to encounter one)!

I might be getting one of my books published. I sent it in and they still have to get back to me but if they do publish it it will take between 4 weeks to 6 months before it is out for sale.

Keep me in your prayers.

Spiritsfire

WOW!

So, I'm just going to give you the same advice you gave me..don't kill yourself. EAT!!!!! bodies need food, believe me, I'm in medical school!

Yea, that book, well, it was either me wanting to shoot myself, or it killing me. I'm glad i got the paper over with.

Take care of yourself. Don't let a stupid guy, or guys, mess you up. You deserve better than all that crap. You're an awesome person, and shouldn't let guy drama control your life. In the end, if you give up and quit eating and all that; he wins, and girl, guys should never win in cases like this.!. lol..keep on going, and remember never give up. Things will get better, they always do.

-Christian

I used 2 do that but not as bad it was just little at 1st then it got worse.

Now I stopped 4 the most part.

Thats deep,it must have been hard 2 expierince.

Hello!!

I am doing well, how you been!!

[Harebaba]

I'm really sorry you had to go through that.

*hugs*

It has been a while.My novel is going good. I'm hoping to have it finished before the end of the year but it could take longer.

Spiritsfire

I really hope that he contacts you soon.

*hugs*

I can't wait to see The Dark Knight and the cartoon Star Wars!  I'm really looking forward to them.

I really hope that everything works out with your friend. 

I don't think of you as just words on a page!  I think of you as a real friend!

*hugs* 

Rachel, you know this is not true.  I love having you around and if it wasnt a 1000 miles away, I would jumped in the car the moment you invited me the other night. I care, I TRULY CARE about you.  I love hearing your stories, hearing about Tim, hearing the good, and the bad, and I take solace in knowing that Im not the only person not self-centered.  You know this, we've talked about it.  Please know I need you around to take care of me the way you have so far.  You know how much you meant to me that night, and there might be another night where you are needed, but more importantly, you are WANTED every night, so get online, come talk to me and let me know what is really going on.  I love you like you love me.... dont forget that.   <3

mib

It's words on a page like above that take much of the sting out of what goes on for me.

And I thankyou very much for that.

Id copy the whole conversation of what we talked about in regards to this...... but you know..... just dont forget......

Thanks again

-mib

Yes, yes, yes, girlfriend.

It's been a thing for a while now.

I have written about it before but not exactly in every entry.

I'm not sure the relationship will go anywhere, it feels a little 'reached the point that it'll never pass' kind of thing.

But it's fun at the moment.

On a side note, I'm quite keen to see wall-e.

Even though we are chatting on IM right now, I just want to say that Im glad to hear your weekend was great, and all was good.  Wish you could have the kittens, but oh well.  And as far as all that is going on, there isnt really anything that I know of you can do..... but thanks as always gorgeous.  Back to the IM'ing... lol

-mib

What do you mean he broke a plastic bin?

-mib

Well you're a regular here again now aren't you.............nice to see.

For what it's worth I sat and listened to the Muppets Album with a friend today. I'm sure your boyfriends family would appreciate it.

[tommib]

Things have been pretty quiet recently! 

That is a really good quote!

[BeingMe997]

No Im very grateful to have you in my life actually, someone who will be 100% honest with me about everything.  And you know this!  Dont look too deep into things.  Im just in a mood.

-mib

Glad your back and had a great time.  Was thinking about you and worried how things were going to turn out.  See, you were worried about nothing.

-mib

First up Happy 'belated' Birthday young lady (and enjoy it while you still are, some of us are over thirty!).

Secondly thanks very much for your comment on my diary, it really is greatly appreciated.

It's good to se you on here so much, you had a bit of a gap there for a while, not that I can speak......Mr Sporadic.

Anyway hope you're well, and keep enjoying that 'interesting' pizza idea.

That actually mite be a good combination.

I like cinnamon sugar. I like cinnamon Toast Crunch.

Mmmm now that is some good stuff right there.

And the french toast kind too. God I'm hungry.

Dont be ridiculous.  If we went through all that we did last night and now you think I dont want to talk to you, I dont know what to say.

-mib

I've never tried sugar on pizza!  I do hope that you enjoy your 4th July and that you have a good weekend.

[BeingMe997]

It is good to see you here more often.

Carltonstud/Spiritsfire

I was feeling exactly that way a couple of months ago, when a couple of people who I thought were my friends let me down really badly.

Now I think that friendship isn't dead.  It may be hard to find sometimes but it is still out there.

I really hope that things get better for you soon. 

Hey. Sorry we haven't talked in a while, but things have been pretty crazy for me lately. I really haven't been able to keep up with anyones diary. I hope that changes soon.

I actually was able to get to sleep for two days in a row, and only had the nightmare once, but last night I couldn't sleep. But, still, its progress.... I guess.

nah...friendship isn't dead! The qualities, well, they might be! At the moment I have a bestie that I'll do anything for and I know she'll do anything for me!!!!! Other than her, I have this guy, my youth pastor at church, I know he'll do anything for me too!!! However, besides those two, I can't really depend on anyone other than myself..and GOD! Until everyone is just absolutely conceded to an extreme level, friendship will always be around!!!!! Well, I hope!!

Your so blessed to have a good roomie!! I don't have one at all; well I do, but she's my little sister!!! lol!!

Course I'll be your friend!! I love friends!!

-Christian

well.

obviously its not because I was curious enough to read this entry. I am in fact one person who cares about what other people are going thru..umm I feel like you alot of the time. I swear. well anyway maybe we can get to know more about each other ..

PeAce && LOve.

Simply.MaYa

Yes, that's exactly who I am and no, they arent dead.  But I feel they are most of the time, because I cant find a person who knows what a real friendship means, no matter what.

-mib

WOW oh WOW

I am so extremely sorry about your friend!! My first entry was about a death!! It is horrible, but he is in a better place...

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! Being 19 ROCKS!! lol

Thanks for the advice..it helps a lot!! I've read the book,well, some of it, and just I don't know..it blows my mind lol but your advice helps..I'm going to have to reread it slower and pay more attention...

-Christian

Happy Birthday.

I'm really sorry about your friend.

[BeingMe997]

Happy Birthday.

It is terrible when someone close dies but even worse when it happens on your birthday.

Spiritsfire